Mommy's Lil' Angel

Liv in her Halloween Costume...

Ant & I go way back...

Senior Superlative: Best Hair Male and Female.

Anthony Novarro

Kelly Barnes

Go Yearbook Yourself! haha!

Finally...

Finally! I've decided what my next tattoo will be! I LOVE Hello Kitty--I have for over 20 years. So...I think it's a safe bet that I'll never get tired of a Hello Kitty tattoo or TWO! This is my idea...I want to get a Hello Kitty Angel on one shoulder and a Hello Kitty Devil on the other. It will look something like this:

Welcome to Airhead City population ME hehe!

Ok, so Anthony has been missing a pair of his eyeglasses for at least a month now. Today, I was cleaning the kitchen and something just made me take a look inside a cansister on the countertop. Guess what I found in the canister? Yup, Anthony's glasses--they're no longer M.I.A.. I suppose I placed them in the canister at some point to get them out of the way. Who knows why I would put eyeglasses in a decorative canister??? hehe Leave it to me!

Just Venting...

Ok, so I don't mind going to the dentist at all, but I HATE going to the doctor. I guess that's why I've put off getting a physical for 4 years. Tomorrow, I have a dental appointment @ 9 and a physical @ 11. I'm sooooo nervous! Just think of me and pray for me if you're reading this prior to 11 AM on Thursday, 9/25. Thanks!

Desperado

I'm posting the link to one of my fave Seinfeld episodes...heck, what am I saying? I love them all! hehe. Anyhoo, the link is to a bit from the episode where Elaine is dating a guy who goes into a trance everytime he hears the song Desperado. I think we all have a song or two that we just have to pause for, or at least I know I do. One song that I have to pause for is Diana Krall's Why Should I Care. What's yours?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dGF93X39kRg

Update on Previous Post...

I just did some research on laws/regulations and such regarding telemarketers--it is violation for telemarketers to call before 8 AM and after 9 PM. I decided, while I was at it, to go ahead and finally get on the do not call registry. I could have filed a complaint had I been on the registry for at least 31 days. It wouldn't have made a difference anyhow as the number was unknown, and the telemarketer did not give me their name or affiliation. I should have asked...too late now. It should be against the law for a number to be unknown.

All of this B.S. just made me think of another issue. Recently, the phone rang, and on the caller ID it showed Buddy's Bar-B-Q, Powell, TN...I picked it up thinking it was someone I knew and it was one of those automated calls trying to sell me satellite service or something. How do people get away with this crap?

I can't believe that one call has sent me on a rampage tonight...hehe.

The Bitch Came Out Tonight...

So...I had no idea that telemarketers could call past 9 PM--I thought it was some sort of law. Well, tonight I received a call at 9:54 PM from an unknown number and the bitch in me told me to answer it, so I did. I answered the phone in a very soft voice as Liv was sleeping--the lady on the other end asked "can I speak to your mother or father?" Oh, man this really got me fired up. I was like(after a long pause) "um,I'm 27 years old, so no." Well, once she realizes she's on the phone with an adult she goes on with her spiel about my car warranty. When she finally stops to ask me how many miles are currently on my vehicle (first off, I'm thinking, which damn vehicle is she talking about?)I ask her what the time is from where she's calling. Well, the bitch doesn't answer me and instead asks what time it is on my end. I told her..."it's 5 til' 10 PM and my baby's sleeping." She apologized, but in a bitchy tone. WTF???

Maybe I should just make this a dream journal...

So, I just now remembered this dream from last night and had to write about it. I dreamt that my house had all fake wood paneling inside...we're talking the fake railing and all. I guess you could say it was more of a nightmare. It just made me think of the Seinfeld episode where Kramer had the idea to make his apartment all wood. Anyhoo...I must have hated it so much in the dream that I tried to burn the place down. I didn't realize that I had left the stove eye on with a towel or pot warmer on top of it and started a fire. I was trying to blow the fire out, but it kept reigniting. Well, that's all I can remember.:)

Another Strange Dream...

Drowning Dream Meaning
Psychological Meaning: Dreams of drowning or struggling in treacherous waters may represent your fear of being swallowed by forces hidden in the depths of your unconscious. You may be proceeding too quickly with your opening of the unconscious. It may be helpful to talk your problems and fears through with a friend. They may be able to throw you a lifeline and help you 'keep your head above water'. The dream also shows how you are being overwhelmed by your emotions. You may fear sinking financially or be drowning in your difficulties. Do you feel that, in waking life, you are being 'sucked into' something you would rather not be a part of? Pause for a while and make sure you have your 'feet firmly on solid ground' before you make any major decision.
Mystical Meaning: A business will flounder if you dream of drowning but will succeed if you are rescued.

Ok, so last night I had this very symbolic dream, or at least I think it was symbolic. Anyhoo, I had jumped off into a lake or ocean or something and somehow under the water, I got my wedding rings caught up in a ladder. I was drowning because my rings were hung up. My only hope for survival was to remove my wedding rings. I felt remorse for losing my wedding rings, yet I was relieved to have my head above water. What does this all mean? I pulled the above dream interpretation from one of those dream interpretation sites. It sort of makes sense.

This is for You Tammy

So, those of you who have actually taken the time to read some of my posts, may know that I have strange dreams from time to time. Well, last night, I had a dream that actually made sense in some sort of cosmic way. My cousin passed away 10 or so years ago at the age of 19. We grew up together and were fairly close, even though we fought a lot. She was the closest thing I had to a sister since I'm an only child. So, she was in my dream last night, and we had a conversation. It seemed so real, even though I knew I was dreaming, if that makes any sense. She told me, "I'm always with you and watching over you." I was like, "so, you're my guardian angel?" She said something to the affect of "no, it's not like that--it doesn't work that way." It was so nice talking to her in the dream and I immediately woke up following the dream and felt very calm. Of course, I googled the whole dream scenario and read that loved ones can in fact, communicate with us in our dreams. It's weird timing because Tammy's 29th birthday (I think) would have been this Sunday and the anniversary of her death next month.

Thanks Again to the Daily OM!

September 1, 2008

Enduring Discomfort-Missing Our Old Habits

Whenever we make the effort to free ourselves of an addiction or a habit we no longer need, we are often surprised to find ourselves missing the old pattern as we would a familiar friend. This sounds counterintuitive, because we think we should instinctively gravitate toward that which is good for us. And yet, it makes a lot of sense when you consider that we humans are creatures of habit. This is why we gravitate to people and places—and patterns of behavior--that make us feel comfortable. Therefore, many of the habits we form are not conscious and are based instead on learned behavior from role models who were not always making the healthiest decisions. Most addictions begin as a way of avoiding feelings that are extremely uncomfortable, so it makes sense that stopping the addiction means, for a time, a fair amount of discomfort. The same, of course, is true of habits that we have developed over time that we are ready to release. Just knowing that this is hard, and having compassion for ourselves as we work through this process, can help us to stay the course when we feel the urge to backtrack. It’s also helpful to remember that in time we will establish new, healthier patterns, and the yearning for the old ones will disappear. Eventually, we will instinctively reach for things that are good for us, and the longing for positive change may form the basis of a new habit. The only way to get to this new place is to endure a time of difficulty, which is a challenge we can confidently handle, if we remember that it will lead to the change we seek in our lives. Our bodies, hearts, and minds always need time to adjust to a new way of doing things, but they will adapt, and even become our allies, if we remain true to our vision of a new way.

I can't think of a creative title right now...

I rarely watch movies, but today, I decided to play catch-up and watch THREE movies!!! You know, I should really watch movies more often because I enjoyed it thoroughly. I watched The Ex, I Think I Love My Wife & Dan in Real Life. All were great movies.

Ughghg!!!

I really don't even want to write this, but I need to. I'm a 27 year old wife and mom. I have a degree and a job. It's nothing big, but it's my life. So...why in the hell do my parents think that they still have control over my life? Why does my mom constantly call (stalk) me leaving crazy messages? Why did my dad curse at me on the phone today? I've tried my best to be fair. Believe me, if they weren't my parents, I would have disowned them a long time ago. I mean, I really want to tell them "you are dead to me!" It's so tempting. What is stopping me? Honestly, I don't know. I really don't know what else to say right now.

How Appropriate!

Your PMS Disaster Level: High

You are definitely a PMS disaster! At least you're only scary a few days of the month.

Are You a PMS Disaster?

I knew it!

You Can Definitely Spot a Liar

Maybe you have good instincts. Or maybe you just have a lot of experience with liars. Either way, it's pretty hard for someone to pull a fast one on you. You're like a human lie detector.

Can You Spot a Liar?

Random Quiz of the Day...

You Have a Fairly Strong Willpower

Temptation doesn't get the better of you all that often. If you set your mind on a goal, you'll do your best to achieve it. And while you don't have a perfect record with willpower, you do okay. If you fall off the wagon with something, you're usually not off the wagon for long.

Is Your Willpower Strong?

My Fridge...

What Your Fridge Says About You

You like to be surrounded by things you love. You aren't exactly greedy, but you can be materialistic at times. You are not careful with your money. In fact, you rarely think about how much you are spending. You don't tend to be a very adventurous person, but you do surprise everyone now and then. You have a bit of a wild side. You try to be responsible, but you don't always succeed. Your heart is in the right place though. You are likely to be married - and very busy.

What Do the Contents of Your Refrigerator Say About You?

My Bed

What Your Bed Says About You

Outward appearances aren't important to you at all. You think that the over emphasis on looks to be shallow. You are an organized and disciplined person. You do the right thing because you want to, not because people expect you to. You are very low maintenance. You tend to go with the flow, and you're easily pleased. In relationships, you tend to kick back and let the other person be in charge. You tend to be a down to earth, practical person. You think in terms of what is actual. You are a total homebody. You are happiest when you're at home.

What Does Your Bed Say About You?

This sort of fits me...

What Kelly Means

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

My Daily OM

I receive my horoscope from The Daily OM via email each day and found this particular horoscope to be so appropriate for the day:

August 20, 2008 Present Joy Sagittarius Daily Horoscope

You might be enjoying the company of children, which could make you feel young at heart today. Perhaps it is the carefree way in which children are able to express themselves, or the abundance of energy they seem to have, but the time you spend at play today may remind you of this unencumbered and free state of being you experienced as a child. This may be a great time for you to consciously release any worries you have in your adult life and make a point to experience the joy that comes from both being in the moment and being fully present in your body. As you let go of anything that is in your mind, you might make certain that you bring your attention to simple things, such as the look and feel of your hands or the sensations you experience throughout your body. You may also notice that focusing on the here and now could bring a greater level of enjoyment to everything you do. Letting go of our thoughts about the past or future helps us to completely experience and appreciate the joy of being in the moment. When we are able to do this, we are really allowing ourselves to go back to the time in our lives when we didn’t have to worry, when our main focus was on savoring each and every second. Being with children or simply letting yourself be childlike today will free your spirit and make your day truly precious.
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And Yet Another Sad Journal Entry...

I'm not quite ready for bed so here's just one more...

Wed, October 24, 2001, 12:25 am...

"Had a bad day again
Said I would not understand
She left a note and said I'm sorry
I had a bad day again."
-Fuel

Yes, I had a bad day again. I found out that I missed an activity in my social psych class, which means there is no possible way to make an A now. I showed up to work, and wasn't even supposed to be there. I spent the evening by myself. I once again didn't feel like reading for class so I just didn't! Maybe I'll get around to it in the morning. Oh, I also found out that I only have $6.00 or something left in checking! Oh, and I always live in fear of anthrax or terrorist attacks and stuff. Maybe I will cry tonight. I need to stop being so damn self-centered!

Another Sad Journal Entry...

I haven't posted anything on here in quite some so before I go to bed I'm gonna post another college journal entry. Enjoy...or not!

~Friday, September 8, 2001, 1:00 AM~

Yes, it is me again...the ^eternally depressed one. I just don't know what is wrong with me. I am very nervous because it is only the beginning of the semester and I'm already overwhelmed. I know I have been in the same predicament countless times before, but it seems that each semester, the better I do, the more pressure I lay on myself. To cheer myself up I'm going to buy some clothes and shoes tomorrow. It seems like I work all of the time and never buy anything good. I mean, you only live once (according to most), therefore, I might as well treat myself to something nice; something that makes me happy. I'm so tired of trying to please everyone. I work almost every night running constantly (no rest) trying to please people for usually about 2 bucks if even that sometimes. I have to watch my boyfriend flirt w/ other girls while he ignores me. Thank God that I'm off tomorrow or shall I say today. I'm going with my dad tomorrow to get my car serviced and have it washed. Most importantly, I'm going to buy some goodies!:) [I'm skipping a paragraph here]. Sometimes I just feel worthless. I just don't know which direction my life is headed. It just seems that I'm never happy about anything. I'm aware that this is quite unhealthy. Worrying and being unhappy does nothing but make one unhappier. It gives gray hairs, wrinkles, heart attacks...I could go on and on but I'm sleepy. Nighty-night!

Life Before Life

Ok, so I fall asleep at night with XM radio's talk channel. I woke up this morning to Dr. Oz's show. He was interviewing the author of the book titled, Life Before Life. This show immediately caught my interest. They were talking about children who claimed to be reincarnates who had similar birthmarks and/or birth defects to the injuries of those who they allegedly were in a past life. For instance, one child was born with a distinct birthmark on his leg resembling the entry/exit wound of a bullet. It turns out that the person they were in the life before was shot in the leg in war. I know most of you guys don't believe in this stuff, but if you're interested, just follow the link:http://www.lifebeforelife.com and read the case studies.

Liv Loves Lake Livin'

I've added pics of Liv's first lake trip...enjoy!:)

Strange Dreams...

Ruben Studdard + Christmas Ornament + Joe McHale+Spraypaint = last night's crazy dream!!!

I only remember certain bits and pieces of my dream so I'm giving it to you in bits and pieces. Ok, so I was on vacation somewhere and I was asked to pick up a Ruben Studdard signature ornament for a family member. I'm bragging to Anthony about how wonderful these ornaments are. Later, I'm in a room with a bunch of people, huffing spraypaint in an organized fashion. I'm laughing so hard because of the spraypaint (I've never huffed anything by the way...so, I'm just assuming it makes one laugh). Then, Joel McHale from the Soup shows up and I start hitting on him, and he rejects me! I become more desperate and keep begging him to kiss me or do something with me...hehe. I then end up @ this really cool place to eat. It's one of those places where you can't eat inside, but have to walk up to the window to order. There's so much on the menu and it's so overwhelming. I see this old woman order a screwdriver and lasagna. They actually hand her an entire bottle of vodka so I'm like that's what I'm having too. haha! Oh, yeah, I also just remembered that my old high school buddy, Jamie B. was in my dream, but she was still with her high school boyfriend, Tim (those two broke up back in high school). There was a bunch of other crazy stuff going on in the dream that I can't even remember. The only thing I can figure is that I ate in bed last night hehe. I had fallen asleep on the couch and woke up around midnight craving a snack, so I had a piece of pepperjack cheese and a Reese's 100 calorie snack with a diet Mountain Dew. I may do it again tonight to see if my dream continues...:)

Daily OM

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July 25, 2008Feeling Threatened Afraid Of The Truth
Most of us have had the experience of being in possession of a piece of truth that we were afraid to share because we knew it would not be well received. There are also instances in which we ourselves have been unable to handle some truth confronting us. This might be a small truth, such as not wanting to see that our car needs repairs because we don’t want to pay for them, or a large truth, such as not fully accepting that someone close to us is pushing us away. Usually the truth is evident, and we can see it if we choose, but we have elaborate ways of hiding the truth form ourselves, no matter how apparent it is. For the most part, we avoid the truth because it scares us, or makes us angry, or makes us feel like we don’t know what to do. We often create our lives based on a particular understanding, and if that understanding turns out to be fully or even partially incorrect, we may feel that our whole sense of reality is being threatened. It takes a strong person to face the truth in circumstances like these, and many of us run for cover instead. Nevertheless, we can only avoid the truth for so long before it begins to make itself known in ever more forceful ways. Ultimately, there is no way to avoid the truth, no matter how painful it is, so the sooner we let down our defenses, the better. When we know the truth and accept that we may have to adjust our lives to accommodate, we are in alignment with reality. At the same time, we can be patient with people around us who have a hard time seeing the truth, because we know how painful it can be. Whatever the truth is, we make a sincere effort not to close our eyes to it, but instead to be grateful that we have access to it.